Monday, July 26, 2010

The foundation is shifting.. Be Prepared.

A couple of weeks ago the Lord spoke to me & told me "The foundation is about to shift." "Your foundation is about to shift" I thought hummmmm... Bro. Clark came and preached a couple of Wednesday's and I believe birthed a shift in the spirit in our church. God spoke to me again and said it wasnt just for me and for others but for our churches globally the foundation was about to shift. He asked me "What happens when the foundation shifts?" I said well Lord the ground shakes.. The Lord told me to be prepared so that when the shifting begins my feet would be stable and I wouldnt lose my balance.. These past couple of weeks have been shaking me around spiritually speaking. The Lord also told me He is going to begin to shake everything around us. the great falling away and great coming in is here. He told me we have not seen what we think is a great falling away, but people who we never thought would leave the church will and people that we have given up on entirely will come back and serve God. People that we thought would never serve God are about to come in. He told me this would be His sign that He is coming very soon. Today while I was driving to work, the Lord was dealing with me about what is in our hearts. He shared with me people dont really love Him like they should. He told me after all I have done and all I have shown them, its not enough Noel they dont really love me. Our hearts are so full of other things He has no place and no room left to sit upon the thrones of our hearts. He told me, "What do I have to do to win the love of my people?" As I prayed and asked God to search my heart and purge me, I felt the sorrow in God's words to me. I felt the Holy Ghost call me to a time of deep prayer like never before. I felt such a cry in my soul to forget about me and pray for soul's hanging in the balance. I thought Lord I have been so distracted by the enemy. So selfish in looking at man and refusing to see that what is happening in my life is God's way of cleansing me and preparing me for something I have put off for so long. I see the enemy trying desperately to cause a wedge between me and what God has called me to do. I declare to the enemy of my soul. I shall NOT be moved!
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
11Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.
I prayed God whatever I have to go through just get me ready. Prepare me so that when the violent shaking begins I will be like a tree planted by the water. I do not want to be shaken away. I refuse to lose my family. I will intercede for them. God has been so good to me and He is coming back so soon, I will not be distracted by the fire which is trying to consume me. I will come out as pure Gold! If God be for us who can be against us?
Greater is He! Make extra time for extra prayer. Soul's are depending on it. Invest your time in a young person their life is depending on it. Gather your family together in prayer and fall back in Love with Jesus before its too late and you end up a Benji. God is crying out to a selfish generation who puts their own desires ahead of the perfect will of God. Lord dont let me be in that number. Let me humble myself under your Mighty Hand and pray and seek your face. Dont let my soul be lost in eternity. Keep me Dear Lord in your tender mercies I pray. I plead the BLOOD over my family. In Jesus Name!

James 4:10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up. 1 Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time.

Haggai 2:6-7 “This is what the LORD Almighty says: ‘In a little while I will once more shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land. 7 I will shake all nations, and the desired of all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,’ says the LORD Almighty.

Hebrews 12:26Whose voice then shook the earth: but now he hath promised, saying, Yet once more I shake not the earth only, but also heaven. 27And this word, Yet once more, signifieth the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain.

I want to be ready when He comes! I dont want to be shaken away.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Your Miracles are waiting on your Faith to respond!!

Sunday we had such a good service. Bro Nathaniel preached a message called "The Art of not paying attention." It was so personal to my soul. We had deep prayer afterwards that left a such a residue of anointing. We had lunch with some friends. Then we had another prayer meeting where God gave us a Divine visitation of His spirit. God spoke to us in such a special way. Lives were touched. God left us with a lasting impression. I feel like my cup is running over..This year God has so much more to give. I feel it in my spirit. If we would ask and simply believe there is just no telling what God will do. There is NOTHING impossible for God! Nothing!! So many times we limit God by not trusting Him to be capable to slay the giants of our life. By not trusting Him to provide above and beyond all we can think or ask. There is no problem to great or to small for God to solve. There is nothing impossible for Him to do. We limit God by our preconceived notions of what our mind perceives through reason. God is capable to perform the impossible. Trust and believe.. Just believe Him for your miracle!!Expand your vision. Ask for your dreams and hopes. Trust God to make them a reality! He can! He will! I have decided to start asking . What do I have to lose? On the other hand I have everything to gain. I realized this week I have been to passive about what I want and what I need from God. I was praying God your will whatever you want and my pastor preached a message about God saying WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
I felt like God said I am going to do my will, but what do you want? SPEAK IT OUT! SAY IT! ASK ME FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE! I felt like God said to me, you haven't asked me because you think its to much or to hard for me and its not reachable for you. But Im saying I can do anything you ask of me if you can just believe!! If you would just trust that there is NOTHING impossible for me. NOTHING!! So Im saying to you! Dare to believe the Lord for your miracle!! Ask and you shall receive. Seek and you shall find.. Knock and it shall be opened!! Just practice the Art of not paying attention and believe God for what you need and even what you want. No matter what your up against or what people are saying or what the voice of reason says or what doubt creeps in. Push it all away!! Trust God! He is a sure thing!! Your miracles are waiting on your faith to respond!! IN JESUS NAME!!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Happy New Year!!!

Happy New Year to everyone! I stopped blogging for awhile but I am going to blog again for awhile. Things have been crazy busy. So much has happened. Glad its a new year. God has been so good. I want to say yes to the Lord this year. Yes! Yes! Yes! I dont want to be distracted by life, people and my selfish desires. I want to be available to God. I know every year I say I will pray more, fast more, whatever.... I desire to do these things in my heart. I pray God will help me to be committed to this desire. It's gona take sacrifice. My time.
I have to pay the price. Count the cost. I have been pushing it back and allowing myself to be distracted. God I pray you would bind every distraction in my way and lead me into a season of prayer and fasting. I was listening to Royce Wilson the other night from Bott 2009 and he preached a message about being a prisoner in a land of fulfillment. He talked about how when we are favored by God we are tremendously persecuted and targeted by the devil and people. This last year has been hard to take, but I also see great blessings that have come out of last year as well. God has blessed me with a couple of great new friends in the church. Transplants like me. They have been the greatest blessing to me. I thank God for them. I am very slow to form close friendships with people. These 2 women were sent by God. We have laughed and cried and then laughed some more. We have prayed and fasted and just had a blast bonding together and I thought about how a three cord fold is not easily broken. I love everyone in our church, but its so nice when the Lord allows us to really bond and form a closeness. There is such a blessing in friendship. When you can be yourself and still be loved.. lol I am thankful today for my sisters in the Lord.. It is better that 2 stand together for if one falls the other can pick them up. Sis Stephanie and Sis Santa I love you both so much!! You are priceless treasures in my life.. Thank you for being there and loving me for who I am. What are we gona cook now ladies??? lol The 3 Amiga's 4ever!!!! I thank God for you..

Monday, September 14, 2009

The Wind is Blowing Again!!

Yesterday what a time we had in the presence of God! Before the preaching even began I could feel the spirit of God so strong in the church I just wept under the power of God. As the preaching went forth such a deep touch of God entered into that place. I could barely keep composed as the burden of intersession hit me. As pastor began to prophecy I could feel the witness of the spirit of God in the church so strong I wanted to just fall down on the floor. It was so thick and so tangible. I feel like God was walking through the aisles and handing out gifts of answered prayers. I asked for God to touch Bro. Willoughby.God told me He was answering my prayer. I know God is already healing him, but these are rough days for him in the midst of his healing. God spoke to me and told me again He was going to make him whole. I felt it so strong in my spirit I know God has answered this prayer. He asked me to come back later that night and pray for Bro. Willoughby until 9:00pm. I did and God has moved the progression of Bro. Willoughby's healing further along. To God be all the GLORY for His miraculous healing power.
In the service yesterday I went up to my husband and shared with him what God was saying to me about us and him. My pastor called us over and said to us word for word exactly what I had just told my husband. It was amazing. Just amazing! God also spoke to me to tell my pastors wife I hope she was ready to help pastor 1000 people by 2011 because thats how many we will have coming in over the next two years. She didnt miss a beat and she instantly responded YES I AM READY!!!! I cant wait to see what ALL God is is going to do! Last night a couple of us went back to the church to pray as God had instructed me to do and we had a powerful move of God again. God spoke to my sisters and the presence of God was still in the church and we asked God for more and He was happy to provide. I have this surge of Faith rising up inside of me and I am excited to see what God has for our city. Thursday I plan on going to our insurance lady's home and praying for her and her sister who have asked us for prayer. I expect her to be healed and her sister to be delivered and we might just baptize them while we are there and why not have God move and fill both of them with the Holy Ghost?? WHY NOT?? God is touching down in Hollister and I am ready for a great move of God in our city. This last year the enemy has tried to destroy my family, but greater is He! We are still standing and God IS going to use my family for His Glory and His Honor! I receive my pastor's prophecy in Jesus Name! The wind is blowing again Sis Mindy!!!!!! She knows what I mean!
The wind is blowin' again, the wind is blowin' again
Just like the day of Pentecost, the wind is blowin' again
There was a crowd gathered 'round from all over town
They came to see what it was all about
There was a sound that came down from the upper room
Where the Holy Ghost was being poured out
It sounded just like the roar of a mighty wind
As it fell on every one of them
And the wind that blew at Pentecost keeps blowin' and blowin' again
The wind of God is blowin' through the world today
Like the prophet Joel said it would do
For peter said on the day of Pentecost
It's for you and your children too
You better open up your heart and let the wind blow in
You'll never, never, never be the same again
For the wind that blew at Pentecost keeps blowin' and blowin' again

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I want to know Him!

I was thinking about someone this morning and I was praying God give them a desire to pray and to know you. God spoke to me and said how can they love me if they dont even know me? I thought wow... Then the thoughts started pouring in my head. How can you stay in love with someone you never talk to or spend time with? Like in any relationship its getting to know someone that brings you closer. I thought if you never pray and never talk to God how can you ever know Him or more importantly love Him? I thought about myself how I sometimes neglect the time I have dedicated to Him. I thought if you had a best friend and you met for coffee every morning and you just didnt show up because you were to busy or overslept or whatever... I thought about Jesus sitting there waiting for me and I didnt show up. Yet day after day He still showed up. In real life we wouldnt have a friend very long if we disregarded them this way and yet we so easily treat the Lord this way. I know I have and I felt such a longing in my spirit to know Him in a closer deeper way. I felt so sorry for the person who didnt even have the desire to know Him. I felt so sad because I knew God loved them so much and He is longing to have a relationship with this person, but how long will He continue to show up to an empty seat sitting across from Him? You cant love God truly love God if you dont have a relationship with Him. I thought about how His friendship and His love are so rewarding in my life. It is unconditional. The gifts He gives and the love, mercy and grace He extends to me. What do I give in return? I can not compare the benefits of His glorious friendship to me. I felt like the Lord was saying to me how can people love me if they dont know me. It takes effort to keep a relationship. You have to know someone to really love them. We love our children because its natural. Its easy, but to love the Lord doesnt come naturally to most people. You have to know Him and experience His love and feel His power and know His love. This takes communication with Him. I thought about His friendship towards me and I thought about how empty and lost I would feel if I didnt have Him to talk to or to depend upon. I need God so much. I could not make it in this life if He wasnt part of mine. He is my everything. My hope when Im down and out. My strength when I am weak. My healer when I am sick. My help when I am in need. My comfort through my sorrow. Who can give me what the Lord gives me everyday? Who will be there when everyone has walked away? Who can I trust and believe for all that I need? He is all things to me and what am I to Him? I did nothing to earn His love. I dont deserve the benefits of His friendship. Yet He loves me for who I am. With all my shortcomings and all my flaws. I just dont know what I would do without Him. I want to know Him more than I do. I want to share my love with Him. He deserves our time and our lives. He deserves to be in the center of all I do and He deserves my undivided attention everyday. Not just on Sunday or Wednesday. I must make the time to get to know Him. This is what keeps me in love with Him. I love Him and I need to show Him. I need to show up for coffee and not stand Him up. He is my best friend. It is vital to our relationship to spend time together so that I may know Him and Love Him like I should. Help me Lord to give back to this blessed relationship I have the honor and privilege of having with you. I want to know you!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Jesus verses satan.. lol

Jesus and Satan were having an ongoing argument about who was better on his computer. They had been going at it for days, and God was tired of hearing all the bickering. Finally, God said, "Cool it. I am going to set up a test which will take two hours and I will judge who does the better job." So Satan and Jesus sat down at the keyboards and typed away. They moused. They did spreadsheets. They wrote reports. They sent faxes. They sent e-mail. They sent out e-mail with attachments. They downloaded. They did some genealogy reports. They made cards. They did every known job. But, ten minutes before the time was up, lightning suddenly flashed across the sky, thunder rolled, the rain poured and, of course, the electricity went off. Satan stared at his blank screen and screamed in every curse word known in the underworld. Jesus just sighed. The electricity finally flickered back on, and each of them restarted their computers. Satan started searching frantically screaming, "It's gone! It's all gone! I lost everything when the power went out!" Meanwhile, Jesus quietly started printing out all his files from the past two hours. Satan observed this and became even more irate. "Wait! He cheated! How did he do it?" God shrugged and said, "Jesus Saves"

Thursday, July 9, 2009

A word from Jesus...

Been awhile I have been on FB and I have neglected my blog. Although I always breeze through to see what others are sharing. Something really special happened so I thought I would share it with everyone.
Bro. Winslow a great man of God from Texas is visiting EV my moms church and when he comes it is always such a powerful and awesome move of God to behold. He operates in a very rare function I have been blessed to see. He has prophesied to me before and my mom and I just know its always great.
So I prayed for a couple of people for God to speak to them and give them a word they needed. I had church on Wednesday at my church so I prayed God would bless our service and bless theirs. On my way to church I was praying God I know there are a lot of people that need a word and I dont mean to be selfish but my daughter will be in that service with my mom and it would mean so much to me if you would have Bro.Winslow say a prayer over her. Not a big ol thing Lord just a prayer. I left it at that.
The night before I talked to her on the phone and I told her honey if he walks by you ask him to pray over you, and she said, " Oh mom that is so embarrassing Im not gona do that!" I just laughed.
So after I prayed that prayer I focused on the one person I really wanted him to speak to and I went and thoroughly enjoyed my own service. Never a dull moment in Hollister with my pastor. We are blessed to have a prophet of our own for a pastor so its always good!
I got home and my daughter called and I could hear the thrill in her voice as she spoke, "Mommy, mommy guess what?" She continued to say, "I was standing there and Bro. Winslow walked right up to me and he talked to me and then he laid hands on me and prayed over me!!!!" I was completely taken back with such gratitude in my heart as my eyes filled with tears that God would answer my little ol prayer. She said, "he told me that I was going to sing for Jesus and Jesus was going to use me to be a great worshiper and I would sing for Jesus!!!" I started to cry I just couldnt help myself. She was sooooooooo excited and at that moment I thought God you are so good and so personal to me I am at a loss for words. She was so thrilled to have this experience and what an honor for God to give that to her at such a young age. God had him stop for me and my daughter. I cherish these precious gifts from God to my child. These gifts are priceless and what a huge blessing she actually recognizes the value of this incident happening to her.
God didnt have to do that, but He did. These are things no one can take from you and remind you of how special you are to the Lord. A reminder of how much He loves our children more than we do. Then I asked for my mom and she told me God talked to my friend for a long time. He called her on the platform and prophesied over her such beautiful and great things. I talked to her after church and she shared with me all that she could remember and I was so absolutely thrilled for her. She has been through hell these past few months and her heart was breaking and God just reached down in that service and gave her the hope she needed to go forward. She is like a sister to me and I have watched everything she ever knew striped from her and the enemy has tormented her. I have NEVER seen anyone handle such tragedy and turmoil with such dignity and grace.
I am so proud to call her friend and I can promise the suffering she has endured is NOTHING to be compared to the GLORY that shall be revealed in her. So I end with saying thank you to my Lord and savior for answering two prayers so close to my heart. God just cant be any better than He is to me.. It gets sweeter and sweeter as the days go by, Oh what a love between my Lord and I. I keep falling in love with Him over and over and over and over again... Sweet Jesus you have captured my soul and won my heart for eternity. I LOVE YOU. You have shown me a love I have never known. Thank you.....

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Now they just need the Holy Ghost!!!!

Well I dont know if you remember the Mellow's but, they were the elderly couple we met at the gas station one night on our way to church about 6 months ago. We gave them a bible study and have since become friends with them. This past sunday we went by their house on our way to bible hour and told them we would be honored if they would be our guests at church. Mr. mellow has always told us he wasnt ready to visit yet. Something told me to stop by anyhow. They agreed and came to church for the first time. My husband had went to their house the friday before and gave them the last lesson and talked to them about the plan of salvation.
They both went to the alter and prayed after the service. Then we asked them if we could bring them some lunch after church. We went home and got changed went to the store and went back to their house and Sis Gloria met us there. Mr. mellow said he really enjoyed the service but didnt understand why they were running and some other stuff. My husband talked to him and explained a little about why we do what we do. Something kept tugging at me to bring up water baptism. Finally after dinner was over I just said Mr. Mellow we love you guys and we want you to be ready God forbid tomorrow may not come. I know my husband has talked to you about water baptism and how do you feel about that? He wanted to see it in the bible. We showed him again and he said, Noel you ar right tomorrow is not promised and if this is part of what it takes to be ready lets go. He asked his wife and she said well if you are I am.. It was so cute. Then me and Sis Gloria made the mad dash to find warm water.. lol We called everyone and no answer. Finally I got ahold of the Leonardo's home # and she answered and said of course. On our way he asked us to stop at his granddaughters house and ask his granddaughter to come and his daughter-in-law. They werent there. We called Sis Gloria to ask her to call them because she is good friends with them and she said. "Noel they are both in the car with me and the granddaughter is going to be baptized too." I was so excited. The daughter-in-law had prayed for many years for their salvation. Recently she has been out of church. She was attending an apostolic church. Her daughter has been to our refuge services and knew Melissa Leonardo. This was all planned by God. Kim the daughter-in-law said she would be coming to our church and kept thanking us for reaching out to her family. My husband baptized all three of them. His first baptism since he was ordained. I was so proud of him. This is such a great testimony of how great God is. Mr. Mellow was so happy. He kept saying, "I wish I would of done this sooner and not waited until I was 77. I kept standing in awe of how God never gives up on people and extends his mercy to the honest heart even at 77. That just amazes me. I told him with all confidence this is going to change his life forever for the good. His wife Rita kept saying as we were driving home. Im free!! Im free!! Its so ironic these elderly people are our babies in the Lord. "OUR babies" I am so thankful I could cry.. This is what serving God is all about. Bringing souls to Jesus... Nothing better than this feeling.. Be not weary in well doing for in due season ye shall reap if you faint not!!! Thank you Lord for the Mellows!!!!!

Monday, June 8, 2009

Draw me Nearer

Prayer changes everything... Friday I was driving to Morgan Hill to help my friend with her son's graduation party and my mind was just full of stuff. As I often do I started to talk to God. I had been really frustrated with a certain issue and I started to tell the Lord "Im kinda tired of this and Im kind of tired of that person and I wish someone would just bring me some comfort regarding this and blah blah blah"

I was really shocked by the Lords response. He told me I was spoiled. I thought WHAT????? ME??????? The Lord began to break it down for me so that I could open my eyes and really see. I have to say I wasnt sure Id share this because it was very humbling for me to hear. Then I thought humility is good for me and I need to share this and remember it forever.

The Lord started to explain to me I was spoiled because I dont see how He keeps me from suffering the full consequences of either the wrong decisions I make or the wrong decisions of others that affect my life. He told me He keeps an arms length distance between me and the full blows that come towards me. He said because He uses me in the capacity that He does to encourage others He shields me from things that could ultimately devastate me. Like when I have made wrong choices the consequences could have been unbearable. When other people in my life make bad choices it could affect me so much I couldn't bare it. God said He has literally placed a covering over me that takes the brunt of my trials.

Here I was thinking I was suffering so much through this trial and I was made very aware it was nothing compared to suffering it alone with out Gods hand standing in front of the devil saying, "STOP right there you can only come this far. He has kept the enemy at an arms length distance from my life. Then he told me some things that were hard to hear, but were none the less true. He said that situation you have been struggling with is sent by me. I use that individual and those circumstances to drive you to your knees. Yes you pray and talk to me all the time, but I have called you to a place of intersession and you have not heeded my call. He told me there were people who were dying and going to hell because I have not been there to intercede for their soul. I started to cry because I know God has dealt with me so much about this and I have been lazy and not went to the church at night to pray like I was. Then God told me this call of intersession on my life is a gift passed down from generation to me and will pass to my child. He said there are people who pray to be used in this area and you have this gift I have given you free and you dont use it like you should. I never knew it was gift. I just know I have always interceded when I pray. I know I have ignored it many times and God finally told me if I do not heed to this call He would lift it from my life. WOW.. I felt so small at this moment and so compelled to comply with God's wishes. I told Him okay Lord, I will commit to this right now this week. I was driving with tears streaming down my face I felt so bad I had grieved the spirit of God. I asked Him to forgive me and made a commitment to heed to the call of intersession I have ignored. Anyone who reads this please pray for me that I will be faithful. There are so many things I have to intercede about. The best part of this talk with God was what He said at the end. He told me if you will come and do this the problems and issues will resolve themselves through your prayers. Your prayers will touch me and the intersession will filtrate through your life with my favor upon your situations. The prayer of intersession holds blessings for my life and for my family. I sit here in awe of who God is to me and wonder why He chooses me for anything, let alone something so beautiful. I told the Lord I cherish His favor and when He asked me what I really wanted from Him, my answer is to be closer to Him. That is my prayer to be closer to God than I ever have. More than financial blessings or relationships or any other material thing or spiritual gift I want to be close to Jesus. I want Him to be pleased with me in whatever I do. That is my prayer today and for the next few weeks to come. God draw me close to you....

I am Thine, O Lord, I have heard Thy voice,And it told Thy love to me;But I long to rise in the arms of faith And be closer drawn to Thee. Draw me nearer, nearer blessèd Lord,To the cross where Thou hast died.Draw me nearer, nearer, nearer blessèd Lord,To Thy precious, bleeding side. Consecrate me now to Thy service, Lord,By the power of grace divine;Let my soul look up with a steadfast hope,And my will be lost in Thine. O the pure delight of a single hour That before Thy throne I spend,When I kneel in prayer, and with Thee, my God I commune as friend with friend! There are depths of love that I cannot know Till I cross the narrow sea;There are heights of joy that I may not reach Till I rest in peace with Thee.

Monday, June 1, 2009

God is the Potter We are the clay. Make me and mold me Lord..

Back on track. Just when it seems like its the end of the world the Lord steps in and says peace be still and the storm ends and just like that the journey continues and life keeps on showing up and it starts all over again.

Ive been on a walk in the valley and there were times I thought I might just lay down and die there.. lol A few weeks ago I saw this picture in my mind and I kept seeing it. It was like a desert floor with lots of cracks. Clay like reddish brown in color and I could see it for a long way. I asked God what it was and He said the foundation needs water. Its cracking apart like clay does when it drys up. It needs water. With water it will become smooth again and solid. I thought about then and kind of shrugged it off not really understanding why He was showing me this. Today it seems so clear. When I went to church last sunday and I just cried it out, I felt like this warm water just pour over me and my soul. It just washed over me and I felt spiritually cleansed and renewed in the Holy Ghost. It was like I was that desert floor. I needed the living water to wash over my soul and smooth it out and make it whole again. I know this probably doesnt make much sense to everyone, but it does to me. God always is there to meet you at the end of the road. He just picks up your weary heart and holds it for awhile. I felt like He gave me a big squeeze and it gave me the strength to go on. All the prayers from my church family were priceless and so very much needed. Thank God for the saints who dont have to know the details but will just pray and touch God for you when you need it most. Wednesday night my pastor preached a message called "Let me be right" It was so good I cant even tell you in words how good it was. It just gets better and better at TPC in Hollister... I am blessed to be here. The love God has put in my heart for the ministry we are under is something I cherish. There are a few preachers that have touched my life and made a tremendous impact on my heart. My pastor is one of them. What a great and mighty God we serve!! He cares about us more than we will ever know. My pastor preached about how God cares about the details of our lives and how we should pray about every detail in our lives.
This past weekend I went to patterson to work at the apricot festival for my cousin who owns a kettle corn business. On friday I checked the weather and it said saturday would be 90 degrees and sunday 89. I thought it will be so much hotter in the trailer. So I thought about the message and I prayed God please cool down the weather for us so we wont be boiling in that trailer. I hate to be hot. I know you may think Im crazy, but the weather was cooler and had a nice breeze and I thanked God for answering MY prayer. It was super tough work but I didnt roast!! Thank you Lord for changing the weather in my life spiritually and literally over the weekend in patterson. YOU ARE GREAT!!!!! God answers prayer and yes even the little ones....

Monday, May 18, 2009

Storms pass.. Life goes on. God never changes...

Picking up the pieces after the storm has blown through is exhausting. I had an unexpected storm roll over my life and I wasnt prepared for the damage it caused. I feel like I spiritually collapsed under the pressure. I read something that helped me today, God is the same yesterday, today and forever.
My promise is settled, in the midst of my disaster.
I read this:
by Pastor Dansby (Dallas Texas)
I read an account about a storm that came as a surprise.
"The storm came roaring in from the Atlantic, and it left the city of New York paralyzed. Ordinarily such a snow fall causes little inconvenience in that city.Snowplows are assembled and crews are at work even as the first flakes begin to fall. The weather forecasters do a good job, and because they do, the city is kept moving, and New Yorkers can continue on their way.But on that cold day a few years back, the weatherman missed it. His mistake was understandable. Weather systems in this country usually move west to east. This storm slipped in from the East, taking New York City by surprise. This sort of thing happens not only to cities but also to people."In the Bible, Jesus knew that there would be times when storms would come and cause an upheaval for these disciples that He was praying for. Jesus is praying for them and their mission to be faithful when those times would come. Jesus is praying for protection from the evil one as well as their sanctification.One thing I know for sure is that God's word is Forever settled in Heaven and in Earth; I also know that when storms arise in our life unexpectedly that God does not change His mind on how the outcome will be for me. The word says that He is the same yesterday, today and forever.I always remember a little saying from a kid show that goes like this: "Yesterday is history, today is the present, and tomorrow is a mystery."Jesus knows that there are storms in our path, that are unexpected in our tomorrows, and that if we hold on to Him it will be all right.For the Cause of the Gospel,Pastor Greg Dansby
I needed to read this today. I realized that no matter what happens God never changes. I just have have to pick up the pieces and follow Him. He didnt leave me. He is right here. My journey might have come to a halt but I am still going onward. Thats all that matters.
Yesterday is gone. Today I am here. Tomorrow God knows where I will be. I feel like the old song says, I feel like going on, though trials may come and storms may blow, I feel like going on........

Monday, May 4, 2009

The Proof is in your Praise!!!!

I was listening to a song this morning by Marvin Sapp called "Praise Him in advance" What a powerful song...I refuse to allow what I see to to hinder what I believe.. That was the most powerful statement to me. I think sometimes we bank on how we feel or what we see or hear in the flesh, when God is saying, "Your praise will cause the enemy to be confused!" God is saying I know it seems as though its not and I know things aren't exactly where I told you they were going to be, but will you trust me?" Praise Him through the storm. Its one of the hardest things to do. The wind is blowing, the sky is howling, the rain is pouring down, everything is getting wet, maybe there is even some hail = HELL! on earth, you feel like your in the middle of a tornado, spinning out of control and it hurts and this is not what you signed up for right?? You feel like , its not worth it, Im done trying, Ive had enough, I cant take anymore... God is just asking way to much of me. Im dying here and God, wont you say peace be still to my storm?
Come on already... All the while God is watching you stand and not turn around and silently cheering you on and hoping you will have the heart to say, though He may slay me, YET WILL I TRUST HIM... He is waiting to see if you can muster up the courage to do the opposite of how you feel. This week I have heard a lot about trusting God. I have the hardest time doing that when Im holding on so tight to the promises of God Im strangling them in the process. I have to leave those promises in His Hands to hold on to for me until they are ready. While I wait I have to trust. Yesterday we had such a great church service and I felt so strongly the cloud of doubt the enemy has put over so many people. I felt my pastor preach to that spirit of defeat and say, "get up and fight.." I thought about times I have felt so defenseless and unable to combat the enemy. Then I remembered how when at those weakest points someone was praying for me and I had to finally just stand up and raise up my hands and start to praise Him. Praise Him through the good and the bad. Weather Im happy or sad. Praise Him because if I didnt know anything else I had faith that God has never forsaken me or left me when I needed Him most. He has NEVER failed me.. and just when I thought I may die in my dilemma, my praise released me from the pain and stress of it all and God was able to take over because I finally let go and let God. Now looking back I can clearly see God wasnt trying to hurt me, He was disturbing me into my destiny. Sometimes what we think is the enemy is not at all. It is God ruffling our feathers so to speak and pushing us out of the nest of comfort to push us towards our promise. I dont know if this all makes sense, but God has given me a revelation about the POWER IN PRAISE. Im the first to admit its not easy, but IT WORKs... I also realized sometimes what I think is the enemy is actually God interrupting my program to tune me into His. I am convinced to stop going by what I feel and what I see and persuade my mind to trust God for what I need, because He is a sure thing. It takes Faith to trust God. Faith comes by hearing. Saturate your mind with the word. It is your most powerful weapon. Then pick up the BIG guns and start to praise. Praise will get you through every circumstance of life. The proof is in your your PRAISE!!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009


Life is going by so fast it seems. I appreciate my drive from Salinas to Hollister more and more as it allows me the time to pray and just talk to Jesus. Yesterday was such good church. Pastor Hurst preached such an awesome message about how this world needs Jesus and the church was a hospital for broken hearts. It is so true so many times I have thought about how hurt and brokenness and hate and all the matters of the heart can only be healed by God. There is not a counselor or medicine or doctor or person who can heal and bind up the wounds of a broken heart. Like that old song says, no one can touch me like Jesus can. No one can give you peace when you cannot understand, no one can bind your wounds like nail scarred hands, no one can touch me like Jesus can. There are wounds my heart has endured that almost killed me. BUT JESUS... He healed my heart and healed my wounds and no one or nothing could of ever repaired the damage that had been done. Jesus can do what no other can do for us. I could relate to what Pastor was saying from my own experience. I wondered how many people suffer from spiritual conditions of the heart. If they only knew Jesus. He takes the pain and fills it back up with His love and healing balm. Oh I am so thankful for His healing power. I had a talk yesterday with a precious elder in our church Grandma Hurst and she told me some things yesterday I will never forget. I have not had the opportunity to know her for very long a little over a year now, but I have such a love and respect for her and her husband. She is the funniest person I have ever met in my life. She is also full of pearls of wisdom. I love older people. If you actually take the time to sit and listen to what they have to say you can learn a lot. She gave me a great compliment yesterday and I will always cherish it. After she said it, she said," you know what so many times we think to say things to people that is on our hearts and we dont say it and you know what? Thats not right." I graciously thanked her. If she only knew how much it meant coming from her. We are blessed to have bishop and grandma Hurst with us and I pray we tell them as often as we can how appreciated and valued they are. Grandma Hurst hasnt been feeling well and I made sure yesterday I took the time to tell her what was on my heart. She blessed me by listening and gave me some of her pearls of wisdom that I will cherish forever and keep in my heart. I told God I would blog about this today. I felt impressed to say to all of you. Dont wait until you cant say whats on your heart. Tell someone what they mean to you while you have the chance. Great people like grandma Hurst wont be here forever so cherish her and your loved ones while you can. If you think something kind about someone say it. They might need to hear it. Encourage someone with a word of wisdom and do something kind for someone just because. God is in these random acts of kindness. Give Him the glory. I have found this to be a tremendous blessing in my life to lift up others and give God the glory. There is no good thing in me. Jesus has blessed me with the ability we all have within us to just say or do something nice just because we can. We dont have to have a reason to tell our brother or sister something good. To do something kind for someone just because. No ulterior motive or expectation of anything in return. JUST BECAUSE.... God does this to us everyday. Gives to us and loves us JUST BECAUSE... Go find someone to encourage JUST BECAUSE.. Call someone and tell them you love them JUST BECAUSE... Say it JUST BECAUSE... Do it JUST BECAUSE... God needs us to be His voice and His hands and feet sometimes..JUST BECAUSE...

Monday, April 6, 2009

Thankful Heart

Thank You
DEAR GOD: I want to thank You for what you have already done. I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now... I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now. I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles. I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.. I'm thanking you because JESUS, YOU haven't given up on me. I am thanking you right now because you made a way out of no way. And I am thankful for your grace and mercy. God is just so good, and he's good all the time.

Someone sent this to me today and it is exactly how I felt when I got up today. On the way to work I just told the Lord I just wanted to thank Him today. I didnt want to ask for anything just thank Him for All He has done in my life. The good, the bad, the indifferent. I just am so thankful that I know Him. He deserves all the glory for anything good in my life. I thought about how I am 40 and it took so long to feel true happiness. I have had a lot of happy moments, but not seasons of true contentment and happiness and today I felt that deep in my heart and I am sooooo thankful because I know it is a blessing from the Lord. We dont have much in the physical sense but I feel so rich and blessed in my life. We have everything we need. Life is good and I am happy about that. I appreciate it. God is good all the time. I love Him today and I honor Him today for allowing me to have this season. I cherish your blessings Lord..

Thursday, March 26, 2009


Yesterday was a really different kind of day. Quiet at work. Then as I drove home I was telling the Lord I was worried if we would be able to meet all of our commitments and pay all of our bills. I said "man Lord I just dont know how its gona happen. I said to Him, "I have to pay my tithes and my building fund and other commitments thats the most important." The Lord spoke to me and said, "You pay those things and dont worry about the money it will produce itself." Of course I kinda shook my head and said, "Lord money dosent produce itself I have to work or get another job." The Lord spoke back to me and said, It isnt logical is it? Money to produce itself? I said, "well no" He said, "Well Im not logical. All things that impossible with man are possible with me. I am the furthest thing from logical so remember that daughter." I was just like "WHOA, ok Lord. The worry left. I know this sounds crazy but it is true. I have to trust God. God is not going to allow us to be faithful and to give, without blessing us in return, even if its His way of paying the bills, they will get paid. I believe Him. Then when I went home I was vacuuming and the Lord said to me, "Vacuuming is like praying." I thought it is?? Then He said, yes the more you vacuum the less debris you will have around. The more you pray the less debris you will have around your life. It made a lot of sense to me. I started to laugh out loud and I said out loud Lord you have a great analogy's. My daughter came out of her room and said, "Mommy, who are you talking to?" I said the Lord honey. She said Oh, ok and went back to the room. I laughed and smiled God would talk to me like He was sitting on my couch so to speak. I ran to get my journal I havent written in for some time and wrote everything down He said. So many times I think Im crazy when I hear God talking to me. Im not crazy. These things He tells me are so awesome and just what I need. I felt so honored He was speaking to me so much yesterday. I felt like it was important to start writing it down. So I will and I felt to share it with everyone. Sometimes I know people doubt God talks to us this way. I was one of them. I would tell myself I have to be crazy, God dosent talk to people this much. I have found out when I speak to him Im always waiting for an answer back. I listen to see if He responds. Most of the time I have found He does. I am tired of holding back because I wonder what others might think. Thank God I can hear His voice. That is a miracle in itself. I just couldnt express how I appreciate the Lord today. Its so much, there arent words in english to describe it. One of my really close friends came to church last night. Four months ago he was in a critical car accident and was paralyzed and told he would be in a halo for 4 months. Broken collar bone and all sorts of stuff. His dad called me and everyone prayed. He was in that halo for 1 month and is a walking miracle. God is so alive and seeking to do great and powerful things through us. I am excited and waiting for Him to perform a miracle through me. The devil hates it when I speak out in FAITH like this, we all need to start speaking out some things by faith and watch what the Lord will do! God is just waiting on us to get some Holy Ghost Boldness! BE BOLD!! BELIEVE GOD FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE!
After I wrote this I checked my facebook and Bro Kilgore was on there saying God gave him a message relating to vacuuming. He is actually going to vacuum on sunday morning during his message. That was my confirmation from God about what he told me yesterday. Is that just so unbelievable or what??? He is going to send me a copy. I am sooooooooo excited! God is talking to us. Are you listening? I am!!!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Oh Lord Keep her in your hands and never let her go.. Keep your anointing on her and let her do great things 4 u in Jesus Name I pray.. I give her, heart, soul and mind to your care Lord. Use her mightly for your glory and honor. Thank you Lord for giving her to me. She is a constant source of my Joy. Her life has kept mine right where it belongs with you.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009



Monday, March 16, 2009


I am still in the wonder of it all so to speak. It all started Sunday about 2:45 am. I woke up and I was wide awake, so I started to pray and I prayed for about 45 minutes and then I just layed there and God said to me, "Are you done?" I said well yes unless you have something you want me to pray about? He said I just wanted to talk to you and I was waiting for you to be done. I was like ok Lord Im sorry you should of stopped me. My last prayer before God spoke to me was more of a talk rather than a request. I told God I dont see it happening Lord. I was referring to a dream I have in my heart. I told God these exact words, Lord Im ok with being a good saint and sitting in the pews and just serving you. I know I long for these certain things and you have dealt with me in dreams and prayer and I thought it would happen one day, but maybe Im wrong and thats ok, I still love you more than anything. I said a lot of stuff to God. Then when He asked me if I was done I was like whoops, I guess I talked to long. Then God said to me, The things which are impossible with men are possible with Me. He told me He is the one whom all things are possible. He dealt with me again about being at the church more to intercede. I said to Him, Lord other people are interceding and praying and He spoke back to me and said, Noel no one can pray your prayers, There are things and people only you can touch me for. No one can intercede for those things that are meant for you. So I knew I needed to make an adjustment in my schedule to be at the church more available to God to do His will through me. I have been lazy and comfortable and not going as much as I said I would. I knew He was waking me up to tell me it was important. Then I opened the Bible in the morning and I was drinking coffee with my husband and I told him what God told me. I told him I was up until 4:00 am talking to the Lord. He didnt say to much. I read that scripture God gave me, The things which are impossible with men are possible with God. Luke 18:27. Then we went to church and pastor starts to preach. I felt like he was preaching to me 100% me. Although he was preaching to a lot of folks. I just cried and wept because he was preaching, I pray God wakes you up and talks to you and God is calling some of you to be so much more than someone who warms the pew. He preached everything God had been telling me the night before. When God does this to me it is mind blowing for me. There is just no way to get away from it. I went to alter and I just surrendered my will to His will. I told God I am willing. I wont look back or doubt His perfect will in my life. I told God I wanted my pastor to speak to me because I knew he was in a prophetic state. I stayed still and waited on God. Pastor prophesied over my husband and I and it was exactly what the desire in my heart was. I told God it was ok if it didnt happen. God said it would. It was like one of the greatest moments of clarity and such a sure thing. So many years I have heard people say things to me and I know without a doubt God has dealt with me about these things. I have deeply desired these things to come to fruition, but I have always lacked the direction and understanding of these gifts. I still dont have the full understanding. But at least now I know my pastor can and will direct us and teach us. God confirmed to me so many things yesterday. I am still in awe of how awesome God was and is today. I am truly blessed. I dont say that in a boastful way but with all humility I have been assured God has blessed me. I have to give honor to my mother from her prayers these blessings were born. Thank you mom for never giving up on me and praying endlessly over me. Your anointed prayers have brought the blessings of God on my life. I cherish and covet your prayers. I love you mom. You have made me who I am today. A blessed woman..

Monday, March 9, 2009

Blessings and Burdens

Im still an hour behind. Ill catch up with myself soon. We had great church yesterday. Thank God we can go to the House of God and be restored and renewed and healed and receive all that we need and more. It has been quite a week. All I can say is life sure has a way of showing up. It was good to have a girls night with two of my very good friends. Good food, good company and lots of laughter.. Memories.... Yesterday in church my heart was so broken and feeling such a sense of loss and burdened. I just tried to compose myself as usual. Then the choir sang my song. Jesus, the most beautiful name I know... I couldnt help myself I just stood up and in my sorrow and grief I just raised my hands towards heaven and said God I thank you in all things. I praise you in this storm and I will lift my hands and then people started to pray all around and God touched my pain with the peace that passeth all understanding. Sis Hurst wrapped her arms around me and it was like Jesus holding me with her arms and saying this to shall pass. I could then grasp what I keep hearing, God is in control. Then Bro. Nathaniel got up and sang that old simple song, I need thee, Oh I need thee, every hour I need, that song ministered to my soul. The timing was so perfect. I thank God he was sensitive to the spirit of God.
Saturday I was so tired from staying up waaaayyyyyy past my bedtime. I met Sis Gloria at the old folks home. When we got there the lady in charge said, "Oh they all came today" They have been waiting for you guys" "They kept asking when are they coming to pray for us?" Last week we had 17 residents. This week we had 23 out of the 24 they have. She said they all wanted to participate this time. As we prayed for each one, one lady looked at us and asked for forgiveness, I just held her head and prayed Gods forgiveness as tears poured down her face. She was so broken. God really touched her. Then the owner came out and said Im next, me too. She said last week she told her husband how all the people loved us and kept asking when we were coming back and she wanted us to pray for her and her husband too. Every worker in the facility waited their turn for prayer. I thought when I got there I wouldnt have anything to give, but God touched me as I prayed for others it strengthened me. This ministry has been a blessing in my life and I thank God for allowing me to be a vessel at this retirement home. The owner sat with us and kept thanking us and telling us how much she appreciated us coming. I thank God for that. Every worker we prayed for God touched them. Tears were streaming down each ones face as we prayed over them. Sis Gloria prayed in spanish over one lady who was so overcome by the touch of Jesus. She just held on to our hands and kept thanking us and crying. It was beautiful. I thank God for Sis Gloria. Her spanish is being used as a tremendous blessing. I look forward to going each week. Thank you for all your prayers. They are felt. Thank you Lord for being with us.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Whispering Pines still has a heartbeat..

Saturday was our first visit to the old folks home. It was called Whispering Pines. It is a senior retirement home. They have 24 residents and the oldest just turned 100 a couple of weeks ago. I'm never sure what quite to expect when I go to a new place, but Jesus met us there.
Myself, Sis Gloria, Bro. Stephen, Sis Brenda (one of our youth) and my daughter Analycia went. We started with prayer and sang some songs. We had about 16 or 17 of the residents in the room with us. We had a song request for just a closer walk with thee. Thank God I remember all the old songs. My daughter insisted we sing Ive got a mansion just over the hilltop. She learned it when we did this ministry in Salinas. So we sang and then I talked for about 7 minutes about God's love and my burden for them. Sis Gloria read the Bible which they loved. Then I asked the owner if we could just go around the room and pray for each one and she said yes. One lady Natalie said "Please pray that these people tell me the truth about my husband I don't know where he is." It was so sad, but we prayed. I asked one man named Vern, what would you like us to pray for Vern? He said "Oh honey its to late for me." I laughed and we all did and I told him "Oh Vern its never to late. God is still on the throne." He said "well ok then go on ahead and pray for me." We went to each one and asked them what they wanted prayer for. Most of them had a prayer request. Some of their eyes filled up with tears and they were so grateful. I held each ones hand as we prayed and this compassion welled up inside of me as I prayed tears began to stream down my face I couldn't help it. At that moment I felt so honored God would allow me to pray for these precious souls. That is what they are. Precious to the Lord. When some of them looked at me while we were praying you could see the thankfulness and tender hearts looking back. I was overwhelmed with Gods love for these sometimes forgotten elderly folks. Then as we made our way around the room we began to pray for one of the nurses who has been working there for 9 years. She began to weep as we prayed over her. God gave me a word for her and she wept harder and just kept staring at me like how did you know? The elderly man next to her began to cry with her that made me cry harder. Oh there were so many tears. Good tears that wash the soul. Then we were allowed to go into the rooms where some of the residents cant get up easily and we prayed for each one of them. We could of spent most of our day there. The people and staff loved us and didn't want us to go. The owner came up and hugged me and thanked me for coming. She said what a wonderful thing our church is doing as a volunteer work. I give God all the glory. He put this in my heart. God placed a burden for the old and the young in my heart a long time ago. There is no good thing in me. We are just Gods vessels. He loves these old people and I feel it is the will of God to go and reach out to them and pray for them and visit them. It blessed us so much to be able to be used by God for this purpose. We were invited back for lunch next Saturday and to stay longer. They invited us to cook once a month. I love to cook and so does Bro. Stephen so this will be awesome. I had to share what a blessing it was to give of my time to the Lord. He blessed my soul through these elderly folks. Thank you to all who went. On my way home I thanked my 8 year old daughter for going. If you could of seen her as she sang her little heart out and she layed hands on the old people and prayed over them and loved being with us and working in this ministry it was so beautiful to me. I told her, "honey I'm so proud of you. I'm so glad your my daughter. Jesus is so proud of you. You are so special to Jesus." I was crying and she said, "well the old people need Jesus too Mommy, they are the forgotten generation remember??!" As I wiped my tears I said, "yes they are honey. Yes they are." Thank you Lord for this opportunity to serve you and do your work in our community. Thank you pastor for allowing us to be blessed!!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

A cost for the call..

We have been in revival with Bro. Greg Henry. What a tremendous young man. Monday he taught on standing behind the ministry. This is something that has always been in my heart. Every since I was a little girl I have had a special love and burden for the ministry.
I have seen over the years the dynamics of being in the ministry and it is a high road that our ministry pays a price for. I have heard people say I want to preach and be anointed yet lack a prayer life. Even as a saint it takes commitment, faithfulness, consecration and dedication. As a minister these requirements are much deeper and higher than our own. The Bible says to much given much is required. It is so true. There is a cost. There is a price to pay. I think people see the end result of a preacher or pastor or evangelist and desire to step into those shoes without walking a mile in that mans steps. I was listening to Bro. Arnold the other day and he said as only he can, "You want my anointing? You want what I got? well then fight my devils, pay my price bubba!" Its true. We have no idea what price some of these great men and women have paid to be where they are. Bro. Arnold can just lay it out. I love that about him. I love his preaching and I also understand Bro. Arnold has been through hell and high water to have the powerful anointing he has. That has cost him something. Sometimes I get frustrated with these young men who want to ride in on the coat tails of great sermons preached by some great preachers without paying the price. They talk the talk and walk the walk but there is no depth or substance to who they are. It is not backed up with a strong prayer life or knowledge of the word. If you want to be used of God there is a cost. Ill bet these great leaders could tell you what travail is. They can write a book about being tried by the fire. They can give a bible study on intercessory prayer. They can walk you through the valley experience. They can describe to you the enemy. These great anointed people all are well acquainted with the power of prayer. The word is written in their heart. Their Bible has wear and tear. It doesn't come easy. We think the devil is chasing us, it is nothing compared to how he can chase our ministers. Pastor mentioned how a couple of ministers had fallen away from this great truth and my heart just broke. I kept thinking about that message Trophies of Hell. Those ministers could be trophies on hell's wall. What a loss. We must pray for our pastors and their wives and their children. The devil is like the master hunter. If he can get our minister he would rather have them than us. He will take us but he is really hunting the big bucks. I pray for our evangelists that come through. They have a hard road. They need our prayers. Our missionaries, they need our prayers. Our leaders over us. Never take it for granted what God has blessed us with. He has given us one of the greatest preachers in the world. Don't you think the devil would like to sift him as wheat? Our pastor is fighting for our city. He fights the prince of darkness over Hollister. He is only a man. He has great anointing but how much stronger could it be if we together lifted him up in prayer every day. If we kept a hedge prayed about him of safety. If we prayed more for his wife that pays the ultimate sacrifice of being his help mate. She is the backbone of who he is. I know we pray for our pastor and his wife but what about a little more? More than usual. More than what we do. It will strengthen them. It will build them up. It will increase their vision. It will keep the enemy far at bay from getting anywhere close to the shepard of our souls. Even the shepard needs rest. Can he close his eyes and feel secure in knowing my flock is praying I am safe. Oh God give us all a burden for our ministry. In every church. Pray for every pastor, every teacher, every evangelists, every prophet, every apostle and all of their wives who carry these great men. Our women ministers as well and their husbands. What we put in with our prayers for them we will reap the benefits of their anointing. There is a cost for the call, are you willing to pay it?????

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

The process of being planted..

Planted.....Thats what Bro. Henry preached about. He talked about being planted and the whole process spiritually. It was simple but profound. I often think about that how it takes time to grow and sprout out and how painful the growing process is. It goes along with a theme I have been hearing, like Bro. Royce preached at BOTT about being imprisoned in a land of fulfillment. God gave me this message awhile back I mentioned it about a time that kills. Now I am starting to see what God is saying. This time of being planted and waiting on God may be one of the hardest things we have to do in our walk with God. God gives us the promise of the end result and we have to hold on to that promise during the process. Even when we are faced with let down expectations or things dont seem to be going the way we think they should or people pierce into our flesh and hurt surrounds us, all the while God is stirring the soil to produce fruit in our lives. The analogy that has been used is so awesome and right on it. The message I am hearing is endure the process. Persevere through the pain. "and let us not be weary in well doing for in due season we shall reap if we faint not." Galations 6:9
It is a time that kills the flesh but elevates the spirit. This time of growth and being planted is uncomfortable but necessary to produce spiritually. God gave me this whole message about a month or so ago and now I am hearing different versions of it.
This is surely God speaking to me directly and through others. Help me Lord to grow gracefully. Help me to endure the "whole" process of being planted to obtain the promise..

Friday, February 13, 2009

Healing of the Heart

Ready for the weekend.. Looking forward to Refuge and revival with Bro. Henry. Wednesday night was such a good service. I cant explain in words what God did in my heart. I just know He began to heal a very painful part of my past. I had to admit there was a part of my heart I had reserved to hold a small portion of some poison I thought could protect me. The poison really needed to be poured out of my vessel so God could wash the wounds and bind them up and heal them completely. For all these years I have held onto this spirit of vindication towards someone who is dead. I felt good in my flesh knowing they were going to hell. I know thats horrible but its true. I have wanted to forgive but I just couldnt and I didnt realize it was something that would eventually turn to bitterness if I didnt pour it out. I was so afraid to let it go when I went to the alter with my husband I felt so venerable and I felt this deep surge of hurt hit my heart and I was so scared but I just said the words to God I forgive Lord I forgive the sin against me and instantly this peace and comfort just surrounded my soul and held me. All this time I held on to this hurt and pain that didnt belong to me. It was clogging my vessels. God wanted me to pour it out. He wanted to fill it with healing waters. It took God minutes to restore a piece of my heart that has been broken and hidden away for 29 years. You will just never know nor could I ever explain Gods mercy and grace and love I experienced wednesday. I felt something wash over me and I felt this huge relief and burden lift off of me that I have drug around for all these years. I am thankful my pastor has the courage to preach things other people wouldnt touch. The sensitive subjects. Because God moved things around Wednesday and my pastor had the mind of God and stepped into a sensitive place in my life, God was able to step in an bring me healing I have needed for way to long. When he was preaching I was literally so uncomfortable I was sitting in my seat and saying in my mind run!! I have ran from this too long and I am so thankful to God for healing my heart.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Call to Prayer

A call to prayer is what pastor preached last night and I couldnt agree with him more. Tuesday night I went to the church to pray. I am right down the street now so I can go and pray and it is a true blessing to my heart. Tuesday God had put on my heart a call to prayer. With God willing and my family asleep I can go spend time with my Jesus. You dont know how much this means to me. This was the best part of moving to Hollister for me. I can pray at the church. I know we can pray in our homes and I do, but to me there is something so special to be at the church in the presence of God and have Him all to myself. It feels so good and nothing can compare to it. These times with Jesus always provide me with intimate moments that create a closeness I long for. Tuesday night God really had me pray over my own family for our focus. I rebuked every distraction in our life that would sidetrack us and keep us from being closer to God and I felt this burden to plead the blood over our focus. I really felt the Lord so strong as I pleaded the blood over our focus. I thank God for His direction in prayer. When pastor preached last night I could relate to everything he was saying. So many times we go to prayer when we need something from God and all the while God keeps impressing me He longs to just spend time with us and He wants us to know Him and for our prayer life to be a love affair between us and the Lord. He loves us so much and He wants and desires to spend time with us. God wants to be close to us. Imagine being close to the King of Kings. What an honor, what a priveldge. I am telling you if you want to experience the supernatural and know Jesus for who He really is then PRAY.. Get a prayer life. It will bring blessings and joy you could never imagine possible. It is a beautiful thing to spend time with the Savior. I cant wait to spend time with Jesus tonight...

Our friends came with us to church again. They absolutely love it. They love pastor. When I looked over at my friend last night we both started to cry because I remember where God brought us from and I was so thankful we were both in church. I am so amazed at how they dont know anything about pentecost yet they just embrace it. They were clapping and raising their hands and they LOVED the preaching. We have not started a bible study yet. We have just not stoped talking about the Lord. Silvia told me Sam went to a couple of churches like ours with her and after one visit he would never go back. I told Sylvia well maybe he can feel this is the real thing. Sam spoke up and this what he said " You know what Noel I can feel that preachers spirit and its genuine!" He said "He's not just up there saying stuff that doesnt mean anything He is actually saying stuff that matters and that will help you!" I was amazed.. AND get this, he said he missed giving his offering last night and he went and got a tithing envelope and chased somebody down and made sure he gave his offering to God. We never told them or talked to them about giving. I was just so touched by this. It has been wonderful to have friends that are so hungry for God. Sylvia now wants to buy preaching tapes for her mom. It is just an awesome experience we are having. It is a blessing to my family. Please remember them in your prayers the enemy is not giving them up without a fight and they need our prayers.
Well I plan on having an organic garden! I cant wait. Sis Christina is going to help me and Sis Natalie and I are going to learn how and what to do. I am sooooooo excited about this. Prayer life, a garden, friends being saved, does it get any better??? Sure it DOES!!!! :) GOD IS JUST SO PERFECT! IN EVERY WAY!

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