The security gates of safety..

I am soooooo sleepy today. I woke up at 4:00 am after a bad dream. I prayed after I went and checked on my daughter. I dreamed she was trapped under a security gate and she was far away and I was on the phone trying to find out what was going on. It was awful. I started to pray for her and asked God what my dream meant. I dont usually get the meaning of my dreams for days later. God began to speak to me about my dream. The dread you felt because your daughter was so far away and you felt so helpless and frustrated and scared. There is a gate of protection around us spiritually in the church. When we decide to go beyond the boundaries of the gates, we are in enemy territory. God said to me that was you trapped under the gate. You couldnt move. I was holding you there. I want you to know how I feel when you drift spiritually away from me. Yes I have the power to save you, but you have a choice to open the gate and walk towards the enemy of your soul. I feel that dread for your soul when you get close to the outside of the gates. I stopped you at the gate. Your may be injured because the gate has you locked in. The prayers of others trapped you there. He told me you have the ability to go out there. But I want you to know if you make it past the security gate of my protection what it will do to me. The pain and hurt and anguish and all those things you felt for your child how much more do I feel for you. Stay inside the gates my daughter He said. He told me when people wander out or purposely go out there is no guarantee of ever getting back inside. He told me He cant protect us outside of the gates. We have a choice to put ourselves on the other side. He told me we our beyond His reach if we go to far. He said He trapped my soul and wanted me to feel how He feels when people walk away from Him. Or in my case wander off spiritually never meaning to step outside the gate. I thanked God for talking to me. My heart was so broken for my daughter in my dream. I couldnt get to her and I was so frustrated I wanted to just kill the person on the phone because they were being so vague and not telling me what was going on. I just buried my face and tried not to scream and cried and said God please help me. In my dream I couldnt rescue her and I knew I only had God to help me. I just prayed in my dream God help her to remember to pray because I could hear her crying and getting really scared. When God spoke to me I realized in my own trial I havent taken it to the Lord. I have just shut off all of my emotions which I can do so well and in doing that I shut God out too. He could hear me crying and He was trying to tell me to stop drifting away from Him spiritually, but to pray and back away from the gates that lead to enemy territory. I didnt realize where I was. In Bible hour they talked about defense and offense and Bishop Hurst said some things yesterday I will never forget. He talked about how defense is so important. Bro John was saying how he loved offense and Bishop explained why defense was so important. It really ministered to me. I would love to hear a message preached on the winning game of defense. Anyway, for the record I wasnt thinking of backsliding. I was just having a moment of closing off my heart from my problem and when I do that I close out my Father who cares for my soul. He wanted me to realize how much it scares Him and hurts Him when I do that. I wasnt playing a good game of defense. I was allowing the enemy of offense to beat me. The end result is I am an overcomer. I am not a survivor. Thank you Bro Than for an exceptional message. It encouraged me to stand up and fight back. I hate whiners too..
Thank you Lord for always giving me these awesome moments of clarity. I appreciate them so much. You are such a personal God. I love you so very much and keep me in the gates of safety. I think its time to play some defense Bishop Hurst.
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities against powers against rulers of the darkness of this world against spiritual wickedness in high places. The weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds!!

Thank you Sis Tena E for being sensitive to the Holy Ghost. I appreciate you and yours so very much. That prayer pulled me through and kept me inside the spiritual gates. Love u..